10-21-2019, 12:40 PM
Thanks for the kind words, Psyboi. I wish I was confident that it *would* pass. This has been going on a for a long time - I noticed a lot of my friends lost interest in me when they had kids, which was about 30 years ago. I had a job (adjunct professor) where the full-time faculty really ostracized the adjuncts and felt we were in the way, and they gave us a hard time if we hung around the college at all. So, meeting people through work was hard, too. Now, for the decade+ I've been very ill, things have gotten worse and worse, with friends moving on in their lives without me. Increasingly, I think things will just continue on this path until I die.
I am married, and my husband and I used to be very happy together, but now all we ever do is fight about money. My medical bills are very expensive, and there are some medical things I need that my husband has said no to, that we can't afford them. But my husband doesn't want to give up driving a late-model SUV, eating lunch out every day, etc. We have over $60,000 in credit card debt, and I'm supposed to somehow figure out a way to pay the bills.
I contacted several of my friends, and I had dinner with one friend, which was nice. She says she'll probably have time to get dinner with me again in about a month. One friend is simply overwhelmed -- she has a baby and is a full-time graduate student. I sent emails and text to a few other friends, and tried to sound cheery and say how nice it would be to see them, but no one else responded. I just sent a couple more messages to friends who live farther away, and I am hoping someone will respond and I'll at least have someone to email with or talk on the phone.
I'm not sure about trying to join activities. It's really hard to go anywhere as I can only walk maybe 100 feet on a good day, and I have no way to propel myself in my wheelchair. A while back, I was planning to go to an art museum with a group of older people from my house of worship. We were going to go on a weekend, and my husband was going to push the wheelchair. But then, the event was rescheduled to a weekday -- I'm not sure why. None of the other people thought they'd be able to push the wheelchair, and my husband had to work, so I couldn't go.
This sort of thing happens whenever I try to meet new people. I'll take a rideshare to the restaurant where we're supposed to meet. Then, they'll decide it's too crowded and they want to go to a restaurant on the next block. I'll say I can't walk a block, and they'll all be angry and disgusted at me.
I am also anxious about paying for a rideshare given all my financial problems.
I appreciate your offer to PM me when you have enough posts, Psyboi. That would be nice.
I am married, and my husband and I used to be very happy together, but now all we ever do is fight about money. My medical bills are very expensive, and there are some medical things I need that my husband has said no to, that we can't afford them. But my husband doesn't want to give up driving a late-model SUV, eating lunch out every day, etc. We have over $60,000 in credit card debt, and I'm supposed to somehow figure out a way to pay the bills.
I contacted several of my friends, and I had dinner with one friend, which was nice. She says she'll probably have time to get dinner with me again in about a month. One friend is simply overwhelmed -- she has a baby and is a full-time graduate student. I sent emails and text to a few other friends, and tried to sound cheery and say how nice it would be to see them, but no one else responded. I just sent a couple more messages to friends who live farther away, and I am hoping someone will respond and I'll at least have someone to email with or talk on the phone.
I'm not sure about trying to join activities. It's really hard to go anywhere as I can only walk maybe 100 feet on a good day, and I have no way to propel myself in my wheelchair. A while back, I was planning to go to an art museum with a group of older people from my house of worship. We were going to go on a weekend, and my husband was going to push the wheelchair. But then, the event was rescheduled to a weekday -- I'm not sure why. None of the other people thought they'd be able to push the wheelchair, and my husband had to work, so I couldn't go.
This sort of thing happens whenever I try to meet new people. I'll take a rideshare to the restaurant where we're supposed to meet. Then, they'll decide it's too crowded and they want to go to a restaurant on the next block. I'll say I can't walk a block, and they'll all be angry and disgusted at me.
I am also anxious about paying for a rideshare given all my financial problems.
I appreciate your offer to PM me when you have enough posts, Psyboi. That would be nice.