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Shayna, you mentioned him thinking he doesn't deserve to eat. Do you know why? Is that a general sense of not deserving, or not deserved until he has achieved a certain thing? Either way it sounds like you are both hurting.

All my best thoughts to you.

Barq- thank you for your concern.  I think he feels that he doesn't deserve to eat unless his blood sugar is sufficiently low enough.

I tell him that he should just eat a low carb meal when that happens.

My daily stress would be entering a 'high anxiety' situation unexpectedly.
- like being called into a meeting at work and asked a question with 20 people looking at me.
But I guess most people wouldn't like that.
Difference is, can you handle it?
10 years ago (when I was 19-20) - no
5 years ago (when I was 24-25) no
Now...well, maybe just.
I've learned that getting 'embarrassed' - for sake of words...won't kill me.

I am mainly here 4 anxiety. (Ok, notice I say MAINLY). I largely ignore it until it becomes a full blown panic attack, and no, I don't want to talk to a shrink about my childhood issues every week just to get something to calm me down as needed. Therapy just isn't everyone''s cup of tea. I know what causes it, and I know why it's back.  I prefer a pill to breathing techniques right now. 

Wow, that sounds angry.  Please don't take it that way. Hope this helps Or entertains someone. Feel free to make an observation if you'very got one. I'm open to them.

I hope you all find relief of what's ailing you.

(02-20-2016, 07:32 PM)Revolution Wrote: [ -> ]I am mainly here 4 anxiety. (Ok, notice I say MAINLY). I largely ignore it until it becomes a full blown panic attack, and no, I don't want to talk to a shrink about my childhood issues every week just to get something to calm me down as needed. Therapy just isn't everyone''s cup of tea. I know what causes it, and I know why it's back.  I prefer a pill to breathing techniques right now. 

Wow, that sounds angry.  Please don't take it that way. Hope this helps Or entertains someone. Feel free to make an observation if you'very got one. I'm open to them.

I hope you all find relief of what's ailing you.

I thought I was the only one who didn't want to talk to a therapist. I too can feel when my issues start u. I have nercolepcy. It's sounds funny but it's not so funny when I fall asleep driving or at work or when I'm stressed because of work while driving. LoL I wish I didn't need my medication. I do have mine prescribed but I hate it. I just want to be normal. I don't know much about anxiety attacks but I have seen them happen to friends and it seems gruesome. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Does your anxiety get worse with caffeine and stress? I've hear jumping into dangerously cold water helps. Seriously but I wouldn't recommend it   And peace my friend. Hope you are finding relief tonight!

I can see jumping into a cold tub could snap you back to reality...if you could convince me at that moment. It's like someone close to me just died everytime i have one. That kind of reaction. Try telling that to your PCP, and they just don't really seem to get it or prescribe for it long term.  My mind just has stress triggers that bring me back to a few particular moments in my life, and it's like I am reliving them right there all over again and again. Usually they occur when I have too much time to think, so work is not an issue. 
Narcolepsy, you don't get a choice when to control that. That must be brutal. Does your medication work?

Oh honey, that sounds awful. It gives me anxiety just thinking about having to relive things from my past. That's why they call it a PRACTICE. They are practicing medicine. The problem is they dont know how you feel, they cant, they are not you and the reality is you need it. Who would want to go through life and try to function like that! No one.
It does yes, as long as I get enough sleep, it helps. With no sleep, It becomes worse. I cant control it no but I can help the symptoms. My mother died because of it. She was driving home and fell asleep. Until then I was not diagnosed, It didn't start until I was around 17. I fell asleep in class a lot and almost got suspended because I couldn't stay awake. They assumed it was depression. I didn't know what it was. I take a lot of medication that isn't good for my heart I worry about it long term. Its the same meds prescribed for those with ADD or ADHD theres other meds but even with insurance its close to $400 a month! INSANE!!!
Work is a good way to not have to be in your own mind. I could see how that would help. Jumping in a cold bath would probably take too much thinking when your in the tornado of an attack. Im sorry you have these attacks. Have you had them all your life?

So I know some of you have read my responses and posts. But you know very little about me, I guess you could say I used to be quite a lot of fun; still can be. Why I was referred here was because I needed help,, any help with my pain I could get and Ice gave me that hope and help. 
I was in a MVA in 96', as mentioned before, and pretty much broke up my whole body. I was 17 turning 18, a few months after.  All the doctors said I'd be fine with a "pretty much" full recovery.  With 4 shattered vertebrae,  lacerations to my liver, causing internal bleeding and a total skull fracture;  my parents were spoken to by a priest.  They didn't know if I'd make it, they didn't even know my back was broken for 3 days.... Gangrene set in and after a 5 hour operation, I had a bag full of steel holding me together. 
I currently live with Traumatic brain injury to my frontal lobe, chronic pain,  fibromyallga,  depression,  and well; the list goes on. After a 17 year court case that only ended 3 years ago, I have had to relive this nightmare. Now, don't get me wrong, I was a millameter from being paralyzed,  and for the doctor that flew in from the states; saved my life and I will be forever greatful...
 I'm tired of telling this story, as you can see why, but want you to know that no matter how many times people tell me I'm lucky to be walking and alive , I'm still angry at the guy who got off with no charges.  Going 120 klicks in a Chevete and hitting a Buick Skylark, he was able to go home that night with a cut toung. He never said sorry, he even had his cousin,  who was a cop, cover his @#$. 

So, that's the beginning of Jade. I'm sorry if I brought anyone down.  I'm just trying to tell you guys a bit of myself  , a little at a time. 

Always greatful and hoping to forgive myself and the driver who bent my life out of shape.

No, it's not to personal. I guess I am trying after all these years to forgive him. It's tough though, I know he is living a happy pain free life. I blame myself for getting in a car with a guy who was narcissistic and spoiled.I knew better but at the time my friends ( who I don't blam) pushed me to get back into the dating seen after I was in an abusive relationship before. I know I was young, in high school, but I can't not think k of where I'd be today if it never happened.
I also know, not to live in the past , but when you have to relive that day for so long ; it's tough.

The other thing is , I went to College and graduated at the top of my class in 09' in the medical profession. I redid my high school 2x to be sure that I would be able to keep up. Bease I have permanent damage to my frontal lobe, my memory highly effected my studies and how Har I had to work. So, I was elated that I'd come so far. Ends up after doing my internship at the hospital, they gave me rave reviews. The kicker... I went to apply for a job at the hospital where I was at and they first said they had a job for me... yaaa , you would think. No, they must have done some digging, (illegal ) and found out that I was on painkillers . So, no job and I worked my butt off for 5 years for nothing....

This story goes on, but I won't bore you. Thanks for the response and making it easier to let out some, only some, stuff I've held in for awhile.

Thanks Fire, your a good person . It's a new day. Cold as hell (hope I can use that word) but I will keep having a positive attitude and get the best out of what I can.

Always,

J.

Thank you Fire, you're easy to talk to and I just got your messsage. I just need to feel better first , then move forward.
I know I have my 50 posts and I'm happy , truly. .. It like learning everything over again...sort of... lol.

Thank you for the point, I will share more as time goes on.

Take care Fire