(12-23-2016, 10:16 PM)Charon Wrote: i was in academia 25 yrs.  no time to get out of bed and do coffee. i prefer tea.  but, no time.  so, to awaken, i would hear the three alarm clocks go off.  take my excedrin with caffeine or pure caffeine.  cut in half or it nauseates one.

it does not impede nor impare short and long term memory.

it would work and i could jump outta bed and begin the process of getting ready for academia and then work.  i stopped the moment i learned i was pregnant.  but, at my age, i think i can take half in emergency again.

oh, i was original group of anorexics "they" studied.  we were called the golden girls. I have certain pleasures, but food or liquids, like coffee,  are not amongst them.  so,  i am sorry but, caffeine is a means to an end for me.  i get things accomplished.  i do allocate time with exercise or doing my makeup stuffy, but that is all i use to be calm for the day.  works.  i hated rushing.  

i am weird.  but, if my parents were in ur kitchen, or u had to walk down a few flights to other kitchen, u would have taken caffeine pills also.  Plus, when u are in class, and i would sit next to blackboard so when my head hit it, i would awaken.  so, i could take half a caffeine pill. carried water.  and i  was alive!  alive!

yes, i eat to survive.  but gain no rewards from it.  i get them elsewhere.  i am the original stick in the mud.

One job, after spouse died suddenly, was a grocery store.  and one had to fill out their three favorite food experiences.  in pages.  now, i was a creative writer, but give me a break.  do i have to be an alcoholic to do the register at an alcohol store?  when i was a pharm tech, did i have to prove my love for pills?  i think any store, hanafords it was, is insane to hire peoples based on how much they love and remember vividly the most important food events of their lives.  maybe leaving a banana peel on the floor to see if it made my mean sister fall?  or, when i put fake doggie do on the floor with vaseline in the kitchen.  kinda food related.

i'm sorry.  i do live like a monk in many a regard.  I have some treats i reckon, when i have time and i am not needed.  But, comforting myself has never been a need to me.  I can do all that in my mind, my heart and soul whilst racing around to make early classes. And, now, I have an intense need to hurry to hit the forum cuz God only knows what went on the nite before.  Whom has PM'd me with their needs.  They will always come first in my life.
 Don't mind me.  Its been a crazy day, poor Nick.