01-28-2020, 03:25 AM
I don’t see that you have done anything wrong. You have more rep points than I do. I’ve been here since 2016. It takes time. Some others whip through 150 posts in a year or less. I don’t even pay attention to rep points. I think some of us just don’t come across as well as others in text form. I’m talking about myself not you. I’ve said somethings that I’ve gone through or used in the past that would make people possibly think i was a horrible junky or something. But if you met me you would know I’m one of the nicest most honest hardworking persons around. Try not to worry to much. But also don’t be stupid about giving out say a vendors personal info on the board. As far as a le comeing after you I see no reason unless your buying hard drugs or insane amounts and reselling them. But I like you only buy what I need and it’s small potatoes. Maybe 300 dollars max per order. Untill I got back on anxiety meds I was drinking beer everynight after work. On weekends as soon as I got up in morning. I work full time job. But I can tell you any social type situation I had to drink to feel normal. Sometimes even having to pound down beers so I could go to the grocery store. I have no real close people except some family as I’ve moved around the country and would make some friends again but move somewhere again and lose that. I’m getting older born in 76. Makes it even more difficult to find people to confide in and hang out with. I quit taking any meds for anxiety for almost a year. That’s when I turned to the alcohol stayed in this post earlier. I looked at myself and decided this is not the road I’m going to stay on. I ordered last spring again some meds. And I’m so much more myself. I don’t drink don’t even want 1 beer. I met a doc who gave me a small 1.5 mg dose of alprazolam. This keeps me safe with work and drug tests. I can add more by using this wonderfull forum. As that dose does not work anymore. And my doc and I talked about switching to clonopin or diazapam. I decided on clonopin. I have some already and use at times but I’m going to make the switch for the long term of being on these the rest of my life. It’s just what works for me. But I’m also not abusing these benzos like I did in years past. I have learned to respect there power to either help or destroy. I like the better quality of life. I’m just going to be changing to the longer acting and have a few on hand of alp in case I need. But not my daily med starting the 5th. I respect le but do not fear this small use would ever be worth there time. And why bother it’s better as I act sober I’m not drunk. If they want my ass for that shame on them. Theres real problems in the world they have to deal with. Not me nor you. And if you lived around my area I’d probobly even meet up with you if you were that alone you just needed someone to bullshit with. I’m not sure what rumination is I’d have to look it up but it seems your worried about law enforcement breaking down your door for small amounts of a schedule 4 benzo. I can 98 percent gauarantee it will never happen. And if they new your name and what you ordered if only a few hundred benzos I’d doubt they would waste there time even if they new every detail even the day it’s in your mailbox. If it’s only a small amount of benzos not schedule 1. And you don’t sell or share them. And act like a responsible citizen. Now I’ll probobly get told I’m an idiot for saying that but that’s ok. I don’t think your a cop but I’d never know. And if you are maybe your just like all of us because you can’t get a prescription you need or the dose you need and your anxious because well I’d be if my job was police in this time in our country. But to the law enforcement out there if you are reading there’s really nothing here. Honestly I know there is nothing hardcore nor any vendor selling anything like that here. It’s a waste of time and tax dollars we all pay. My post is to try and help you chinchillas be more worry free. The rest of my rambling post is to anyone who maybe le.