09-06-2023, 06:18 AM
Literally just had a chat with my psychiatrist earlier today, as me like clockwork as they get to those last five minutes the prescription pad comes out and the only question I’m EVER asked is “do you ever feel overly drowsy?” Well of COURSE NOT, I have hyperthyroidism, like half a dozen severe and interrelated neuroses, etc. etc., could not be more “high strung”. That said it does absolutely nothing insofar as insulating me against the damaging effects of long-term habituation to benzodiazepines… but all this being said, if they’re prescribing it and blissfully unaware of how severe my own physical dependence is (not psychologically, have never “enjoyed” them nor abused them in any way) but nonetheless I have a substantial ongoing dependence that if ever rapidly interrupted would be catastrophic. At least now doctors are starting to realize the serious long-term harm that can be done, but even knowing better (than my own doctor(s)), I still find it very difficult to decline the prescriptions/live my life in a quasi-normal way… talk about a double edged sword.