So upsetting - I've been deleted

[ADMIN OF STEEL]

I think some of you will remember me as Damante. I joined in October and have been slowly but surely posting to various threads and hopefully making friends on the forum.  I had received several "helpful" votes on a couple of my posts to the threads on Migraine and on Sleep problems and had a couple of interactions with other members - Audrey Hepburn was one - which I felt were very positive. Then I had to go into hospital for an operation at the beginning of last week. So I wasn't able to post all week.  I got home yesterday and today tried to sign in. I found I could no longer access my account as Damante. As my head is still a bit all over the place after my operation,  I thought perhaps I had made a silly mistake and used the wrong email address to try to log in. And when I put in my other address, I was recognised - and I realised that, quite by mistake, I had accidentally set up two accounts while trying to register. I had never used this account until today, I had no idea it even existed.  It was only by coming on to the site using this other account that I could see that my whole presence on the site as Damante seems to have been wiped off while I was away in hospital.  And I have now read the warnings to members who do not post.  But I was posting. I had got up to around 15 posts and the ones I had offered were, I felt, mostly heartfelt and positive.  So I wasn't posting lots of short ones but the ones I did post were thoughtful and really totally sincere and from the heart.  I cannot describe how upset this has left me feeling. I feel rejected, as if what I had to offer just wasn't good enough.  Honestly, is this really the impression you want people to have here?  I fear that this account may now get deleted and I will never know what has happened to me further to this. Very sad indeed.

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