So upsetting - I've been deleted

[Rose5555]

I think some of you will remember me as Damante. I joined in October and have been slowly but surely posting to various threads and hopefully making friends on the forum.  I had received several "helpful" votes on a couple of my posts to the threads on Migraine and on Sleep problems and had a couple of interactions with other members - Audrey Hepburn was one - which I felt were very positive. Then I had to go into hospital for an operation at the beginning of last week. So I wasn't able to post all week.  I got home yesterday and today tried to sign in. I found I could no longer access my account as Damante. As my head is still a bit all over the place after my operation,  I thought perhaps I had made a silly mistake and used the wrong email address to try to log in. And when I put in my other address, I was recognised - and I realised that, quite by mistake, I had accidentally set up two accounts while trying to register. I had never used this account until today, I had no idea it even existed.  It was only by coming on to the site using this other account that I could see that my whole presence on the site as Damante seems to have been wiped off while I was away in hospital.  And I have now read the warnings to members who do not post.  But I was posting. I had got up to around 15 posts and the ones I had offered were, I felt, mostly heartfelt and positive.  So I wasn't posting lots of short ones but the ones I did post were thoughtful and really totally sincere and from the heart.  I cannot describe how upset this has left me feeling. I feel rejected, as if what I had to offer just wasn't good enough.  Honestly, is this really the impression you want people to have here?  I fear that this account may now get deleted and I will never know what has happened to me further to this. Very sad indeed.

http://ioplist.org/announcements.php?aid=4 

Read this before posting any further or before blaming anyone.

I'm not trying to blame anyone and I am sorry I didn't make the numbers of posts that I should have.  But the posts I did make came from my heart and were positive and helpful. Had I realised the count was so strict, I could have posted nonsense and fluff every day but I hope that what I posted was genuine and thoughtful. I am very sad that this has happened. That is all I am saying.

We do realize you are here to make posts, But we want members to actively post here. Even 1 Post per 45 days saves your account. But that has to be in the On Topic Area. Not the Off Topic Area.

What is the off topic area?  Are things like migraine, sleep disorder and anxiety, which are in IOP General Discussion, as I remember it, off topic? I posted mostly in those and also in TTM2U which I guess is definitely on topic.  I am really confused now both about the topics and, when you say "even 1 post per 45 days saves your account".  I was a newbie and I think, rather than one post in 45 days, you want me to post more than once a day to be able to stick around on the site - which for me, given that I was posting at length and from my heart, would be a very high total to chase. I would have ended up posting nonsense just to get my post count up and surely that isn't something to encourage?  Anyway, this has been an impossibly hard week, I was in hospital getting a double mastectomy all week and posting wasn't something I could even do, not even the one, let alone one a day!  I honestly felt I had found a home and a family here and it has distressed me no end that I didn't manage to meet the posting levels. Sorry for that.