PTSD and Me

[Furyan66]

You know one of the worst things about PTSD besides the sleepless nights, panic attacks etc... It's all the people around you that don't understand what you are going through. You tend to become really withdrawn and isolate yourself and certain people take that personally when it's not. I have lost childhood friends of MANY years due to this just because they don't get how many demons I am fighting.

I KNOW what it feels like to have to fight through this day by day and sometimes minute by minute to get through the bad days and I am pissed off that this has dominated my life for close to the last decade and I have wasted way too much time.

For whatever reason this year I finally seem to have got the motivation to try and take my life back. I managed to drop 40 lbs since the new year and just been a lot more active which feels great. This plus med's to control my anxiety, meditation to help center the body, mind and soul. Bottom line is I am NOT going to let this get the best of me. Everyday is a gift and I am not wasting anymore time for none of us have any guarantee for tomorrow.

It is not something that is easy to talk about especially for such a prideful person like myself but once you lay it out there it gets better.

Peace Everyone...