06-21-2017, 11:22 AM
Thanks all. I have not been as active posting but as I call it "the demons came back". Thats what I all it when my PTSD goes into overload. All the mood swings associated with PTSD have really been kicking my ass for the last 6 weeks or so.
I have been able to do about the bare minimum like force myself to go to work (damn bills) but I spent many days in bed straight on the weekend, not eating and even ignoring text messages and phone calls. Thats what PTSD will do to you. It takes your hope and will away from you to wanna do anything.
It's something that's always with me and I'm always having to fight it. This time I must say I have been having one hell of a time getting back into a positive mood.
PTSD will make you cry and just wanna curl up in a corner and die.
It Will take all of your willpower away from you to the point where you have to force yourself to do things that would normally be ordinary daily tasks.
Getting out Off bed, taking a shower hell just putting your shoes on all become major events.
Hell I stayed in bed for 2 days straight and did not even eat just because this thing takes so much energy out of you. It makes you frankly just don't care.
I feel like I'm finally starting to snap out of this last episode otherwise I wouldn't be making in this post.
I've was officially diagnosed with PTSD in 2010 but believe I actually have been suffering from it longer.
My PTSD according to my psychologist stems from two back to back nasty divorces in what I call the decade of hell. From 2000 to June 2009 and I ended
up in the hospital for 10 days and major seizures.
I have learned to manage this best I can but everyone is different and you gotta find your own route of treatment. Only your own body can tell you how you feel.
Doctor's are just making an "evaluation"
My heart goes out to all the veterans (GOD BLESS AND THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE) out there and suffer from PTSD. I think it's safe to say it's got to
be worse with what they went through than me going through two divorces so sometimes I feel like I got no right to complain about anything.
Life goes on and I still believe it os a gift but damn sometimes you sure get your resolve tested by the powers at be.
Peace all and have a blessed day
I have been able to do about the bare minimum like force myself to go to work (damn bills) but I spent many days in bed straight on the weekend, not eating and even ignoring text messages and phone calls. Thats what PTSD will do to you. It takes your hope and will away from you to wanna do anything.
It's something that's always with me and I'm always having to fight it. This time I must say I have been having one hell of a time getting back into a positive mood.
PTSD will make you cry and just wanna curl up in a corner and die.
It Will take all of your willpower away from you to the point where you have to force yourself to do things that would normally be ordinary daily tasks.
Getting out Off bed, taking a shower hell just putting your shoes on all become major events.
Hell I stayed in bed for 2 days straight and did not even eat just because this thing takes so much energy out of you. It makes you frankly just don't care.
I feel like I'm finally starting to snap out of this last episode otherwise I wouldn't be making in this post.
I've was officially diagnosed with PTSD in 2010 but believe I actually have been suffering from it longer.
My PTSD according to my psychologist stems from two back to back nasty divorces in what I call the decade of hell. From 2000 to June 2009 and I ended
up in the hospital for 10 days and major seizures.
I have learned to manage this best I can but everyone is different and you gotta find your own route of treatment. Only your own body can tell you how you feel.
Doctor's are just making an "evaluation"
My heart goes out to all the veterans (GOD BLESS AND THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE) out there and suffer from PTSD. I think it's safe to say it's got to
be worse with what they went through than me going through two divorces so sometimes I feel like I got no right to complain about anything.
Life goes on and I still believe it os a gift but damn sometimes you sure get your resolve tested by the powers at be.
Peace all and have a blessed day
"Another Day In This Carnival Of Souls"