07-30-2017, 04:17 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-30-2017, 04:18 PM by Furyan66.
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I have not been doing a whole lot of posting lately just a whole lot of emotions rolling around in my head after the passing of my uncle in late April and right after that finding out that my job now has an expiration date on it really created lot more stress in my life, the kind of stress that having PTSD if I let this get to me I will end up right back in the hospital.
Damn this thing is like a horrible rollar coaster ride and I like roller coasters. LoL. With all the mood swings associated with PTSD have really been kicking my butt for the last 6 weeks or so when I should be enjoying the summer.
It's something that's always going to be with me and I'm always going to have to fight it or control it would be a better word. This time I have been having one hell of a time getting back into a positive mood. Doing a whole lot of breathing exercises, meditation and taking nice long walks listening to a mix of my over 5000 mp3's. Music also a savior and therapy I also use
PTSD will make you cry and just wanna curl up in a corner and die.
It Will take all of your willpower away from you to the point where you have to force yourself to do things that would normally be ordinary daily tasks.
Getting out Off bed, taking a shower hell just putting your shoes on all become major events.
Hell I stayed in bed for 2 days straight and did not even eat just because this thing takes your will to do things away from you. It makes you frankly just not care about yourself or the responsibilities that you have which is just a horrible feeling.
I am feeling a bit better or I would not even be posting this and I think it's time to grill a big old steak I just picked up and have a beer or 2 before work tomorrow.
Peace all and thanks to anyone who just reads this and listens....
Damn this thing is like a horrible rollar coaster ride and I like roller coasters. LoL. With all the mood swings associated with PTSD have really been kicking my butt for the last 6 weeks or so when I should be enjoying the summer.
It's something that's always going to be with me and I'm always going to have to fight it or control it would be a better word. This time I have been having one hell of a time getting back into a positive mood. Doing a whole lot of breathing exercises, meditation and taking nice long walks listening to a mix of my over 5000 mp3's. Music also a savior and therapy I also use
PTSD will make you cry and just wanna curl up in a corner and die.
It Will take all of your willpower away from you to the point where you have to force yourself to do things that would normally be ordinary daily tasks.
Getting out Off bed, taking a shower hell just putting your shoes on all become major events.
Hell I stayed in bed for 2 days straight and did not even eat just because this thing takes your will to do things away from you. It makes you frankly just not care about yourself or the responsibilities that you have which is just a horrible feeling.
I am feeling a bit better or I would not even be posting this and I think it's time to grill a big old steak I just picked up and have a beer or 2 before work tomorrow.
Peace all and thanks to anyone who just reads this and listens....
"Another Day In This Carnival Of Souls"