09-05-2017, 10:34 AM
Having one of these days today. Just cannot find the will to get going. Still have a few sick days and vacation left and gonna use one today and just chill.
Doctor before put me through gauntlet of anti depressants but honestly made me feel worse making me feel suicidal. Don't need that so I will not touch anti depressant again. Right now just cannot find the will to get out of bed and have NO motivation to do anything.
The issue has gotten worse since I have recently found out that I will be loosing my job March 2018 and a close uncle passed away several months ago.
Gotta figure out how to get things under control again. Wilt this PTSD and more problems just seem to keep popping up and cannot seem t get these racing thoughts out of my head. Hell even when I sleep I do sleep my mind does not. I have been told these are "racing thoughts". My little tracker on my arm is telling me I average between 3 and 5 hours sleep a night which is not good.
Gonna try and chill today and maybe just sleep...
Peace All
Doctor before put me through gauntlet of anti depressants but honestly made me feel worse making me feel suicidal. Don't need that so I will not touch anti depressant again. Right now just cannot find the will to get out of bed and have NO motivation to do anything.
The issue has gotten worse since I have recently found out that I will be loosing my job March 2018 and a close uncle passed away several months ago.
Gotta figure out how to get things under control again. Wilt this PTSD and more problems just seem to keep popping up and cannot seem t get these racing thoughts out of my head. Hell even when I sleep I do sleep my mind does not. I have been told these are "racing thoughts". My little tracker on my arm is telling me I average between 3 and 5 hours sleep a night which is not good.
Gonna try and chill today and maybe just sleep...
Peace All
"Another Day In This Carnival Of Souls"