01-18-2018, 05:20 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-18-2018, 05:50 PM by Blockhead59.)
Ok, Rafterman, lol, can't believe I'm sharing about this, but yolo, right? lol. I always "feared" that people could smell some type of bad smell from me. I'm really laughing as I'm writing this bc it's more amusing to me. Laughing is default. But, it is still palpable. Intellectually I know it's not real, but when my emotional/psychological mind wants to pick on me for something, it can go there. I have indeed moved away from people because I feel like I might smell bad, but I know it's all in my head, as they say.
I didn't know such a MH disorder existed until I was in a DMS course. I was shocked. I haven't been formally diagnosed. Just self-diagnosis.
I claimed it as mine to my little cohort of friends for our party. I lied and said no really I didn't have it, it was just the most ridiculous one I found. But, yeah, it was true. Don't know whether I felt better or not when there was an actual name attached to it. I've since told my little group and they still think I'm not mentally well--in a good way. lol.
And, no, thank god, it's not incapacitating; I have enough other issues to deal with. lol I just think it and recognize it's ridiculous (even if it's causing a bit of anxiety) and move on.
You must have been pretty good at what you did as a therapist, lol. Did you get to what triggered this person's thought processes? I still don't know. But, I try to stay as ignorantly un-self-aware as possible--jk
Thanks guys for sharing. Naomi, that's an interesting one. Never heard that one.
I feel safe here, so I'll share lol
You all have a good day! (Still laughing)
Hi Justice 1, Very sad to learn this type of bullying, harassment and interpersonal abuse has been part of your experience. Sounds like you're a survivor, though. I've heard of others who had high school bullies apologize to a bullying victim via FB. I have a friend who told me he actually made an apology to someone he used to pick on. The guy answered him and told him, that although, he forgave him, his cruel behavior did have an impact on his life.
I'm glad you are able to recognize how the abuse and bullying has affected you. And that it wasn't your fault. Sometimes it's hard to get past guilt, etc. But, thank you very much for sharing. I appreciate it and wish you only the best (with the magazine orders, too).
I didn't know such a MH disorder existed until I was in a DMS course. I was shocked. I haven't been formally diagnosed. Just self-diagnosis.
I claimed it as mine to my little cohort of friends for our party. I lied and said no really I didn't have it, it was just the most ridiculous one I found. But, yeah, it was true. Don't know whether I felt better or not when there was an actual name attached to it. I've since told my little group and they still think I'm not mentally well--in a good way. lol.
And, no, thank god, it's not incapacitating; I have enough other issues to deal with. lol I just think it and recognize it's ridiculous (even if it's causing a bit of anxiety) and move on.
You must have been pretty good at what you did as a therapist, lol. Did you get to what triggered this person's thought processes? I still don't know. But, I try to stay as ignorantly un-self-aware as possible--jk
Thanks guys for sharing. Naomi, that's an interesting one. Never heard that one.
I feel safe here, so I'll share lol
You all have a good day! (Still laughing)
Hi Justice 1, Very sad to learn this type of bullying, harassment and interpersonal abuse has been part of your experience. Sounds like you're a survivor, though. I've heard of others who had high school bullies apologize to a bullying victim via FB. I have a friend who told me he actually made an apology to someone he used to pick on. The guy answered him and told him, that although, he forgave him, his cruel behavior did have an impact on his life.
I'm glad you are able to recognize how the abuse and bullying has affected you. And that it wasn't your fault. Sometimes it's hard to get past guilt, etc. But, thank you very much for sharing. I appreciate it and wish you only the best (with the magazine orders, too).
(01-18-2018, 04:28 PM)Justice1 Wrote: I'm fearfully of being trappedand humiliated,speaking in front of others is a close second and has the same feel,I'm trapped,they expect a,b,c from me,,I've been forced to do such leadership things and I can do it..if it's laid back and like everyone is sitting,but me going to front of room and standing doing it alone,,not projector or script to hide behind..if i do have those helpfull things and the audiencedoes engage it's not bad,can have a good dicussion...but on item one I trace it back to my father's favorite saying,What the he'll is wrong with you,and a group of boys who used to corner me and trap me,held me down and punched me over and over,I was so afraid and hid in restrooms or wherever to avoid them..They have since apologized to me and are friends on facebook.i did not reveal the serious impact it has had on my life and the way it has impacted all relationships.i did have a abusive boyfriend once and I ran away to another state,Cali. To Colo. With only a suitcase,only to find him in my home grabbed me and pulled my hair I fought,and screamed and he had a knife,and had driven all the way to other state....he also tried drowning me in front of a bunch of kids when I was about 18......not afraid of swimming,sometimes get panic in large natural water with wind and waves but Ocean, I can float to rythym and dive under waves....it's nice..anyway the screaming drew attention and a man broke I to the house and the ex bf was arrested and taken to jail,then extradited to Cali. For some other thing.....he left his car in front of my house for 6wks till city towering away..I think that's some of itJustice1, I replied to you below. Sorry for any confusion.