02-15-2018, 08:51 PM
Hello everybody. Thank you for taking the time to offer some advice and support.
oneanddone: I have appreciated seeing you around, and I feel somewhat of a bond as we joined the forum around the same time. This is not a side effect of any medicine, these thoughts have been persistent for a long time now, nothing new, it's the reason I'm taking medicine. Was just recently prescribed zoloft and propranaol because I was NOT a fan of the gabapentin (did nothing for my anxiety unless ~900 mg or more was ingested, then I would just nod off. I have talked 2 different psychiatrists and a number of different therapists, and yes suicidal ideation has been a big subject during our treatment sessions. Unfortunately mental health care in the US is somewhat Kafka-esque, almost like a frustrating non-linear dream and results take a LONG time to manifest.
Linville: Although I am new here it is always a pleasure to stop by Cafe Linville and browse, as it is to see your various posts. I will definitely check out the Good Morning thread and stop in once in a while. I know that there are good people here, and that the negative thoughts shouldn't be answered to, but as always it is rather invasive and forceful. Haha, thank you for not mentioning reading!
fishfarmer: Thank you for the warmth and kindness. I am sorry to hear that you too live mentally in a dark place. I hope that as time goes on we can offer more support to one another. I have taken the DNA tests, thank you so much for mentioning them, it could help many confused, isolated people. Happy to hear that the weather and environment are treating you well, Nebraska seems like a beautiful place. When living with these sort of low moods it is very difficult, no impossible to appreciate your surroundings, no matter how magnificent they may be. A paradise can look like hell depending on what lenses, or mindset, that you have put on for that day. In answer to your question pertaining to the 8 year old... I don't have one. I can't possibly even begin to imagine what that experience would be like. I don't know what she would think, if she would even think anything at all of it. Although I appreciate the new frame of perspective. I love your suggestion for volunteering at a hospital, Charon suggested that service to others lifts spirits and it is something that I need to implement into my life. The last two sentences are beautiful, thank you.
oneanddone: I have appreciated seeing you around, and I feel somewhat of a bond as we joined the forum around the same time. This is not a side effect of any medicine, these thoughts have been persistent for a long time now, nothing new, it's the reason I'm taking medicine. Was just recently prescribed zoloft and propranaol because I was NOT a fan of the gabapentin (did nothing for my anxiety unless ~900 mg or more was ingested, then I would just nod off. I have talked 2 different psychiatrists and a number of different therapists, and yes suicidal ideation has been a big subject during our treatment sessions. Unfortunately mental health care in the US is somewhat Kafka-esque, almost like a frustrating non-linear dream and results take a LONG time to manifest.
Linville: Although I am new here it is always a pleasure to stop by Cafe Linville and browse, as it is to see your various posts. I will definitely check out the Good Morning thread and stop in once in a while. I know that there are good people here, and that the negative thoughts shouldn't be answered to, but as always it is rather invasive and forceful. Haha, thank you for not mentioning reading!
fishfarmer: Thank you for the warmth and kindness. I am sorry to hear that you too live mentally in a dark place. I hope that as time goes on we can offer more support to one another. I have taken the DNA tests, thank you so much for mentioning them, it could help many confused, isolated people. Happy to hear that the weather and environment are treating you well, Nebraska seems like a beautiful place. When living with these sort of low moods it is very difficult, no impossible to appreciate your surroundings, no matter how magnificent they may be. A paradise can look like hell depending on what lenses, or mindset, that you have put on for that day. In answer to your question pertaining to the 8 year old... I don't have one. I can't possibly even begin to imagine what that experience would be like. I don't know what she would think, if she would even think anything at all of it. Although I appreciate the new frame of perspective. I love your suggestion for volunteering at a hospital, Charon suggested that service to others lifts spirits and it is something that I need to implement into my life. The last two sentences are beautiful, thank you.