Oh What A Mess

[Rafterman]

Again, so sorry to hear this, Fury. I usually respond to your posts within hours of you putting them up, but am just out of two day hospital stay and back on the boards. I hate the see her break with professional mental health services at this time. Most major metro areas do have free psychiatric care available, but sometimes it can be hell seeking it out. The one qualification is usually low income and they typically make you prove that with paystubs and/or tax forms. I hope that she can get with somebody again ASAP. As you say, the alcohol is behind a lot of this. She is obviously self-medicating with it and it has become the wildcard in this whole situation. The ironic thing is that alcohol is similar to benzo's in the mechanism by which it works. That tells me that she would have gotten some relief from the benzo's, as I have said in previous posts. You explained why she is adverse to that idea and I get it. It's just a shame, though. Alcohol is, ultimately, a depressant all the way around. A benzo, like ALP, is not. It's actually approved to treat both anxiety and depression. It will stop the racing thoughts that you mention in a few of your previous posts. Alcohol tends to cloud a persons judgment and ALP, largely, does not. Not to mention the destruction to the body, the social stigma, and danger while driving, etc. It's just a bad scene. Yes, I do realize that he last psych probably didn't want to give her a benzo due to the possibility of her using it at the same time of the alcohol. She would have to fully transition over because the two together can be deadly. Right now she is dealing with massive emotional pain and also stuck in an akcohol-induced brain fog. I know that you probably already have, but I urge you to exhaust all avenues in trying to get her free care and not to give up in trying to get her to switch to a benzo and get off the alcohol. I am only so pro-benzo because I have seen it pull people out of the most horrendous situations. I would love to see it play a part in doing the same thing for her!  Regards, RM