Anxiety over a forum anyone?

[Noonehere]

I really don't know how to start this. I was diagnosed with severe social anxiety disorder with panic attacks at about 22 years old. I went through so many drugs for about three years trying to find one that helped me and most made me even worse off than I was without them. Till one day my Dr gave me alps and voila it was a temporary fix to what I thought was unfixable.
Over the years I have learned I can live a normal life and manage my problem without taking a bunch of other crap. My 1mg or 2mg a day dose was all I needed to be productive. I am now married with two kids a small business owner and have felt for years I had solved the problem. Then My "Dr." decides it's time for me to stop this after 12 years of it working for me because they are addictive and now there are better alternatives.
This was the beginning of a new level of panic attacks I had never had. I was being tapered off and I could already tell things were going to get bad. After 3 months of being cut from 1mg +/- .5mg-1mg a day to .25 a day. I threw in the towel and found a source and have been stable for many many years but all good things come to an end sooner or later. Now I find myself in a predicament.
Forums are great when I don't have to say anything I can troll and find what I need without asking questions or being "seen". I break out in sweats when I come on here just to say welcome to people to get posts. I have scoured the forum looking for anything I might be able to help with or share my experience but someone always has the answer already posted. I hate when 20 people say the same thing on a thread it tells me they didn't read.
So am I crazy or is there other people that are like this? Have major anxiety over posts on a forum?

[Charon]

well, u can put up smiley pictures. songs. the Cafe. u don't have to interact with anyone really.

i have not felt like speaking much myself of late.

When they brought xanax out, it was heralded as a benzo that does not get one addicted. Physically or emotionally. Balderdash. I know doctors on it for life.

Your doctor is trying to save his license. Very few in medical profession really care how different our lives are on a benzo.

or a mild PK.

Take ur time. This is a great topic. And, we have many activities wherein u don't interact with another. We have busy periods here. Early on work days people are here. At lunch. But, it is quiet a lot during the day hours.

I have faith in u. I personally am a shy person. I just have felt that I am to run a ministry/forum to help others. Its my job, so to speak, now that i am permanently disabled.

Good luck. Let us know. Some doctors will script for u. But, that scenario is getting more and more difficult.

It seems our needs don't matter.

[Hamil]

In our digital age, it's not surprising how people get so stressed and anxious from the internet or mobile phones.

When I can, I try to step outside of myself and look at the situation from the most basic of views: I'm an adult human reacting negatively to some words or pictures on a screen. My old cat used to do exactly the same thing to my tv or laptop (though obviously she couldn't read... I hope :| )

Anyway, we all get to decide how much meaning we place on this stuff. It's because we're all so deeply entwined with it in our daily lives that we take it so seriously, without even thinking. Generally, text and words can be interpreted in so many different ways that the author's meaning and what we read in our heads are completely different.

Take a step back and realise that we're all just cats pawing at screens

[Noonehere]

I really don't know how to start this. I was diagnosed with severe social anxiety disorder with panic attacks at about 22 years old. I went through so many drugs for about three years trying to find one that helped me and most made me even worse off than I was without them. Till one day my Dr gave me alps and voila it was a temporary fix to what I thought was unfixable.
Over the years I have learned I can live a normal life and manage my problem without taking a bunch of other crap. My 1mg or 2mg a day dose was all I needed to be productive. I am now married with two kids a small business owner and have felt for years I had solved the problem. Then My "Dr." decides it's time for me to stop this after 12 years of it working for me because they are addictive and now there are better alternatives.
This was the beginning of a new level of panic attacks I had never had. I was being tapered off and I could already tell things were going to get bad. After 3 months of being cut from 1mg +/- .5mg-1mg a day to .25 a day. I threw in the towel and found a source and have been stable for many many years but all good things come to an end sooner or later. Now I find myself in a predicament.
Forums are great when I don't have to say anything I can troll and find what I need without asking questions or being "seen". I break out in sweats when I come on here just to say welcome to people to get posts. I have scoured the forum looking for anything I might be able to help with or share my experience but someone always has the answer already posted. I hate when 20 people say the same thing on a thread it tells me they didn't read.
So am I crazy or is there other people that are like this? Have major anxiety over posts on a forum?

Hi Noonehere,
No I don't think you are crazy or alone.  Thank you for sharing this--I think it is the beginning of a great topic that to my knowlidge, hasn't been touched on yet.
Wow. I can't even imagine the feeling of panic you must have felt hearing your doc say those words.  Did he/she explain what "advancements" have been made, and what if they don't work for you?  
I'm sure others will post their experiences, but know that we are here to help you with whatever kind of support we can give.
AH

Thank you for the kind words Audrey. Its very hard not to feel crazy at this point unfortunately. Yes from what I remember the Dr explained his case to me but it was the unknown that ruffled my tail feathers. When you have anxiety the unknown is the killer. It's been about 16 years ago now and I don't remember what it was I was going to be switching to because it never happened. I stayed on the alps and I never went back to him again. IMO if something works and allows you to maintain somewhat of a normal life why pull the rug out from under that person just to try new things. I really think Dr's are sadistic people that like to jack people around for fun. Just saying! lol

[Noonehere]

well, u can put up smiley pictures.  songs. the Cafe.  u don't have to interact with anyone really.

i have not felt like speaking much myself of late.

When they brought xanax out, it was heralded as a benzo that does not get one addicted.  Physically or emotionally.  Balderdash.  I know doctors on it for life.

Your doctor is trying to save his license.  Very few in medical profession really care how different our lives are on a benzo.

or a mild PK.

Take ur time.  This is a great topic.  And, we have many activities wherein u don't interact with another.  We have busy periods here.  Early on work days people are here.  At lunch.  But, it is quiet a lot during the day hours.

I have faith in u.  I personally am a shy person.  I just have felt that I am to run a ministry/forum to help others.  Its my job, so to speak, now that i am permanently disabled.

Good luck.  Let us know.  Some doctors will script for u.  But, that scenario is getting more and more difficult.

It seems our needs don't matter.

Charon I really think you are an angel! When I was on the forum a couple of years ago we spoke and you told me basically the same thing. My problem is with a place like this with the vast amounts of information here it's difficult for me to post what I feel is a nonsensical post. So by me just posting stuff that really has no merit it makes me feel as if I'm not contributing and that I think is a trigger for me. I am so very appreciative of you and all the admin that keep this place afloat i'm not sure you realize just how many people depend on you and what you are doing here. So thank you for the kind words and thank you for all you do here.

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Noonehere, I and I know others agree with you.
Why reinvent the wheel when it has been proven effective?  My problem is insomnia and zolp@#m is my wheel. Doctors feel they have to shake things up every few years, basically imo to cover their own asses.   I've been very lucky with all of the support and resources I've received from this forum. Hopefully it will be just as helpful to you. There are some really good people here.

You are 100% correct! Why mess with people?!? I know the information I need is here it's just climbing the ladder to get to it is where I stumble. But thankfully there are good people here and I think the more I interact with everyone maybe it will be a bit smoother for me.

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In our digital age, it's not surprising how people get so stressed and anxious from the internet or mobile phones.

When I can, I try to step outside of myself and look at the situation from the most basic of views: I'm an adult human reacting negatively to some words or pictures on a screen. My old cat used to do exactly the same thing to my tv or laptop (though obviously she couldn't read... I hope :| )

Anyway, we all get to decide how much meaning we place on this stuff. It's because we're all so deeply entwined with it in our daily lives that we take it so seriously, without even thinking. Generally, text and words can be interpreted in so many different ways that the author's meaning and what we read in our heads are completely different.

Take a step back and realise that we're all just cats pawing at screens

Hello Hamil. You sound like me. lol That is 90% of my day I stay outside of myself analyzing everything around me. I have to look at all of the pro's and con's of every action I make. My inability to properly communicate with others is one of my biggest hang ups. I do not have much education as far as schooling my disorder set in at an early age and unfortunately kept me from going to school. I think that is my biggest draw back I don't know how to communicate with typed words. Im not stupid at all I'm just a grammar nazi's favorite whiping post. 

[Linville]

Ha ha Noonehere you mentioning the grammer nazi.

That is funny to think of it.

But.  Actually just came here to this thread of yours to say Hi.

So Hi Noonehere.   

[reilli]

Hi Noonehere.
I have found the pictures thread to actually be therapeutic for me. There is so much beauty posted there and it also causes me to seek out beauty to post which helps make me feel a little more calm knowing that there is a lot of beauty around us even when we are having anxiety or stress.
I also enjoy the music thread because I can see what others like and also post my owns faves which gives me an excuse to listen to some music that soothes me.
Wishing you peace.
reilli

[alexandrema]

i Had anxiety over posts on other foruns. 

Here people are so nice, that i don't feel much stress. 
Plus there are people with so much knowledge and experience than me that my control freak mode doesn't kick in. It does when i can be in the leading pack (NOT the case here).

Hope you excuse my portuguese's english.

[Noonehere]

Ha ha Noonehere you mentioning the grammer nazi.

That is funny to think of it.

But.  Actually just came here to this thread of yours to say Hi.

So Hi Noonehere.   

Hello.

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Hi Noonehere.
I have found the pictures thread to actually be therapeutic for me. There is so much beauty posted there and it also causes me to seek out beauty to post which helps make me feel a little more calm knowing that there is a lot of beauty around us even when we are having anxiety or stress.
I also enjoy the music thread because I can see what others like and also post my owns faves which gives me an excuse to listen to some music that soothes me.
Wishing you peace.
reilli

Thank you very much reilli. I will take a look at it. I have been posting some of my mood music. 

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i Had anxiety over posts on other foruns. 

Here people are so nice, that i don't feel much stress. 
Plus there are people with so much knowledge and experience than me that my control freak mode doesn't kick in. It does when i can be in the leading pack (NOT the case here).

Hope you excuse my portuguese's english.

Your english is excellent! I agree people are much more tolerant here than most forums. I think it's because everyone here has some problem or another so people are much more understanding.

[cmdline]

Noonehere id say welcome but seems your long time member,can relate really on most forums,sometimes id type up half page response then just delete it, since either dont want to explain stuff to people or as many other discussion's general forums go, its usually arguing picking sides etc.

I can see how it can be difficult for newbies getting here and needing to reach certain posts number, since many topics have been talked about million times, that said sometimes i do create my own topics to start ball rolling, since i want to hear personal opinion from someone in similar situation or topic, to have a point to relate to.

Anyway seems your ok ,and have what you need,i dont post regularly either but if have smth in mind or see discussion where i can add something of value i usually jump in.

its bad being cut off xanax after long time,so hopefully youll be able to find another doc that has more knowledge as not to wean person of after decades in few months time,from one of the most hardest benzo to kick.