Yes i have to find a job but have been on antidepressants and magazines for severe anxiety. Have had doctor endorsded magazine subsriptions up until i quit my job to take care of dying father, so i have relied on iops to handle my needs. Uses iops for yesrs but due to lack of doctors reluctance to give most effective mags or to low of dose, i did have that needed label so to speak so when i changed jobs there was no roblem. But now i am needing to find a job and dont have the doctor authorization and have no insurance and i have to find job. I am terrified of the consequences of withdrawl which would keep me from leaving my house much less go for interview. I just dont know what to do. Any substitutions i could use to allow me to function to get a job and would also assure a negative screening. Free clinics around here dare not issue those type mags, and found out my local government subsidized facility also im sure will refuse since they no longer employ psychiatrist but nurses. So basically im poor and cant afford to see a doctor to probably get refused proper magszines anyway and i dont have the money to even see one anyway. I am tapering what i have left but when thats gone, im terrified when i run out....panic ridden daily when i have to take one cause thats one less i have. Im just venting now cause i will soon be incompacitated for a while very soon and im just scared. Really scared. Any herbal or something not detected to keep me from hitting rock bottom, and that includeds profound depression, intrusive thoughts, obsessive thoughts of death and suicidal thoughts abnd praying to not wake untp. Oh its horrible. Oh well i msam feelinh so sorry for myself. I know its possible to abstain cause ive done it before. But the pain is so profound that it cause so many problem cause then the comments of just snap oit of it. Oh well sorry for going on and on about my crap. Its so hard to find a sympathetic caregiver unless you pay them out the ass, but thats another topic. Oh well, pray for me i guess. Unfortunately that never helps. Guess im just getting it out by writing it out. Sorry guys. Bye
Sorry for all the grammatical and spelling errors but im already getting that "whats the point" attitude i hate so much. Also i apologize for on and on about my problems and to some im sure it sounds like an annoying boob. But i really am scares and i have to work. And i guess its my rapid taper making me be so incoherant at times...sorry but i know people here have serious anxiety problems as well so i hope those folks undersrand the screwed up pattern of thinking that hapoenss. Oh welk i hope everyone it doing well. Well bye guys
Sorry for all the grammatical and spelling errors but im already getting that "whats the point" attitude i hate so much. Also i apologize for on and on about my problems and to some im sure it sounds like an annoying boob. But i really am scares and i have to work. And i guess its my rapid taper making me be so incoherant at times...sorry but i know people here have serious anxiety problems as well so i hope those folks undersrand the screwed up pattern of thinking that hapoenss. Oh welk i hope everyone it doing well. Well bye guys