Days when it is difficult to move? lazy? or depressed?

[sam81]

I think it is the beginning of a simple depression
Beat it up and out of the air
It will be fine

[Furyan66]

Morning all,

I have never been able to take any kind of Anti Depressant. Of course the doctors in the past have ran the gambit with AD's like Lexapro and many others I don't even remember the names but ALL the AD med's I have taken make me feel even more depressed some to the point of feeling suicidal. I LOVE life and just want to be happy again and the last thing I need is something that makes me feel mentally worse so I don't take any AD med's at all ans will never again.

All of the problems I have with "Days when it is difficult to move? lazy? or depressed" all come from my PTSD.

Best thing I did was to educate myself online on my condition and through that I have learned how to manage my condition mostly by myself through meditation and learning about the body's Chakras. 20 yrars ago I would have laughed at this but it truly works.

Now with the assistance of just one medication a (Benzo) and some wise words from a Psychologist I have learned to control my condition the majority of the time. It's always going to be there though in my mind. I can always feel it.

I take things one week at a time, bad days I step that down to 1 hour at a time and even on even worse days one minute at a time.

Peace All

Fury

[Furyan66]

Fury, I so agree that the best thing one can do is educate oneself about one's condition.  

Sure the doctors will always know more (at least I hope so!) but we know ourselves best.  Combination of knowing ourselves and a basic understanding of the ins and outs of our condition is IMO the first step in how to best manage a tough situation. (Sorry that sentence is so long!)

So good for you Fury.

Sincerely,

Fire

Thanks Fire....

The one bad thing is that after all the doctors and tests and hospital trips for seizures, I have lost respect for a lot of doctors. It took 4 Psychologists before I found one that I even felt really cared about me. My primary care doctor I went to for several years after the seizures in 2009/2010 all he wanted to do is put me on the medications I spoke of and would always "adjust the dosage". Told me to give it time my body would adjust and eventually they would work.

Got news for ya doc never did work after 2 + years.

I also had similar experiences with neurologists and it took me a long time to actually find a human (LoL) one that I could talk to and that did not seem like a robot with no feelings.

I know there are good doctors out there and I should not be as bitter (I am sure they) would choose the word ahole) with them as I am. I have just had a LOT of bad experiences with doctors while I was in the hospital and specialists afterwards. Finding a doctor I TRUST and will listen to me has never been easy.

Anyway thanks again Fire for your post. no wories on the long sentence as you can see I have problem with running em a little long myself. LoL

Peace my friend  and have an awesome weekend

Fury

[Mapurv]

So I'm new here, signed up earlier today and was thinking, how in the world to get 50 posts, then I see anxiety topic, Bingo!

Anxiety has been my downfall since high school, when I care way to much about what people thought, and here I am almost 30, and I can say I have left go much about what people think of me, but the best thing I do for myself and mental strength is weightlifting, and ultimately running.

I do probably try to control things in my life a little too much, such as foods or things that I eat, my finances, such as savings.

But I've come to learn, you have to roll with the punches and life, prepare for the worst, and hope for the best.

Bottom line, I think anxiety can give you a heads up, people with anxiety have huge hearts 9 times out of 10. So do something with that! Giving back, always fills my heart, and there are always good people to meet there, surround yourself with people who care and it helps a lot!

[yellowdog]

well I am back. Good news and Bad news

The Good
I managed to cope using trams. No one noticed and I was able to the work I managed to stick to a routine and be social.

The bad
But now I am back I am going to have to cut the trams I can feel my motivation slip again.

[Mikka]

Hello Yellowdog,  hope you are well. ?
For me,  it's single digits outside & my depression is in full swing,  ya! Not..... I  just keep thinking.. It's only 180 days til decent weather.. Sigh.
Mikka.

[Mikka]

Hi Yellowdog!

When your said you have to stick to routine to stay out of that black hole we tend to slip in,
that is exactllllly what I have to do, as well. Sometimes I many days off in a row from work
and I can feel myself going downward, slowly.
I almost can't wait to get back to work. I tell my coworkers this and they think I'm nuts!
They do not share the same black hole, tho, so I don't even bother to explain it. Too personal, too.
  And I use trams becuz it saves me physically and mentally. I don't know what I'd do
without it. The energy it gives is perfect (not too much but just enuf for a difficult day
and need a kick in the pants). Otherwise, I'd be in bed constantly. Cheers me up, too.

Hang in there YD, cuz we're all in the same boat together & we'll just talk it out til the spring if we have too!
Mikka ~

[Rafterman]

I find myself feeling lazy more often than not. I know that depression can cause you to not find joy in things you once did, so I try not to beat myself up over it, but sometimes it's so bad where I can't even bring myself to do routine things, like go to work. I have to tell myself "you need money to pay for this apartment you're currently standing in". It makes me feel awful because it's such a normal thing, just going to work, but I feel like I have to really convince myself, or I won't go. Fortunately I can seem to force myself to shower every day, that's always a nice mood boost. I know how difficult the struggle is, I hope everyone in this thread is able to find some relief.

Hang in there, Naomi. There are tens of millions of us who can relate to exactly what you are saying. I know that it seems like an oversimplification, but its just biochemicals at work in your brain. Whatever biochemical mix you happen to have on hand at any given moment (assuming your receptors are functioning normally) controls your mood. People tell a depressed person that they don't have enough "guts" or enough "heart". Nonsense! It has nothing to do with willpower or desire. Your brain dictates your mood and we all have limited control over the moment to moment function of our brains. You are not lazy. That is another term that is commonly wrongly applied to those suffering from depression. You have a lack of motivation. Think of yourself as a car that is low on gas. Or even empty. A person can have all the willpower in the world and they still can not get a car with an empty gas tank to move.  A "lazy" person is someone who is not depressed, yet chooses to go the easy route out of luxury. Also, make no mistake...a good percentage of the public is walking around in the same situation. Do not feel strange or different. I hate to think of you suffering like that. If you care to share...is this a long term problem? Have you seen someone about it? Are you being medicated?  Regards, RM

[OldBoy]

Could be narcolepsy as well, doesn't sound like your Doc has looked into that.

[Naomi]

I find myself feeling lazy more often than not. I know that depression can cause you to not find joy in things you once did, so I try not to beat myself up over it, but sometimes it's so bad where I can't even bring myself to do routine things, like go to work. I have to tell myself "you need money to pay for this apartment you're currently standing in". It makes me feel awful because it's such a normal thing, just going to work, but I feel like I have to really convince myself, or I won't go. Fortunately I can seem to force myself to shower every day, that's always a nice mood boost. I know how difficult the struggle is, I hope everyone in this thread is able to find some relief.

Hang in there, Naomi. There are tens of millions of us who can relate to exactly what you are saying. I know that it seems like an oversimplification, but its just biochemicals at work in your brain. Whatever biochemical mix you happen to have on hand at any given moment (assuming your receptors are functioning normally) controls your mood. People tell a depressed person that they don't have enough "guts" or enough "heart". Nonsense! It has nothing to do with willpower or desire. Your brain dictates your mood and we all have limited control over the moment to moment function of our brains. You are not lazy. That is another term that is commonly wrongly applied to those suffering from depression. You have a lack of motivation. Think of yourself as a car that is low on gas. Or even empty. A person can have all the willpower in the world and they still can not get a car with an empty gas tank to move.  A "lazy" person is someone who is not depressed, yet chooses to go the easy route out of luxury. Also, make no mistake...a good percentage of the public is walking around in the same situation. Do not feel strange or different. I hate to think of you suffering like that. If you care to share...is this a long term problem? Have you seen someone about it? Are you being medicated?  Regards, RM

Thank you for your thoughtful reply. Yes, I am fortunate enough to be receiving treatment as well as medication.  I know it's a long term thing to work on, but I have that innate desire for short term relief, you know?  I know that one day things will be better if I keep working on everything, that's what I hold onto.